Uncertain Times

My head is on overload right now. So much going on in these turbulent times and no one knows what lies ahead. So not like me not to know or expect. So what does a person do when they can't control the things that are happening around them and is very much being affected by the crucial situation. Not only do I have myself to think about but I now have a 20 month old son and of course the hubby as well. Life isn't getting any easier but much more unclear. What options do a person have and will I make the right decision are just a few questions of many that need to be answered. Who is it that I can run to and make everything okay like a innocent child running to their parent for reassurance. Life right now is heavy. These are uncertain times but somehow and someway we'll get through them all.

From Part-time SAHM to Working Full-time

My husband was recently laid off from his job which allowed me to stay at home more and work part-time. Since his layoff I have had a hard time trying to wrap my brain around the concept that I may have to work full-time. Imagine that, I would have to spend less time with my son and more time commuting to work and working longer hours as it is almost mandatory in my professional field of work as an Accountant. It's almost as if I am in denial right now.

I have to admit on some days the thought did cross my mind to go back to work full-time but that thought soon passed when I looked at my activities schedule for our playgroup. I enjoy taking my son to these various activities where he can interact and play with other kids while I can enjoy adult conversation. Just the thought of a 9 to 5 makes me cringe.

What Does Stay-at-Home-Mom Really Mean

I work part-time outside of the home and I have a male co-worker who just don't get what it really means to be a stay-at-home-mother. I have much respect for mothers who chose to stay at home to take care of the kids. By profession I am an Accountant and that is a very challenging field but it is nothing compared to being a stay-at-home-mom at least part-time for me. My husband is very hands on with our 20 month son and I still find it to be the most difficult aspect of my life. I take raising my son very serious and I want to make sure I dot every 'I' and cross every 'T'. Basically I want to do right by him and if that means putting my plans and dreams on hold for a while then so it is.

The perception of a SAHM is very tainted I think. Watching tv all day and eating bon-bons are the last thing most sahm have time to do. A list of my daily activities include: being the nanny, the entertainer, the bath giver, the mom, then there is those other pesky little things like the housekeeper, the events planner, the financial planner, the errand runner, the cook, the wife, then back to being mom. That's all in one day only to wake up the next morning to do it all over again.

So for those who think SAHMs are lazy and don't work, I would say think again we do way more work than what we are given credit.

Still New To Mommy Hood After Twenty Months

Ok my son is almost 20 months old and I still feel as if I'm a new mom. I work part-time outside of the home and recently joined a stay-at-home mothers support group in which I am enjoying. I also around the same time started a playgroup to meet moms with kids around the age of my son. Although I am much happier now that I am getting my son involved with other kids for the socialization skills that everyone says he need, I still feel like a new mom. Most days I am exhausted and very much overwhelmed by everything it takes to raise children and I have just one. Some days I ask my husband whose bright idea was this to start a family although I will give my life for this little boy name Isaiah. He has brought so much joy, love, and sleepless nights to our lives and I wouldn't trade him for nothing in this world. But then at the end of the day usually around 11:00 at night I just think one day down and a lifetime more to go.